Express and Confess
Just when I thought that I had everything figured out; reality from within creeped out. I know that I must explain it or expound a little bit more. I never realized until my maturing years how much bull crap that I have encountered. However, I thank the Lord for leading and guiding to a brook where I was skillfully taught and sustained by His precepts and truth. I understand that I can’t allow my feelings and emotions to rule my life especially in critical decision making.
To get to the point, I was given information that directed me to meeting or reuniting with two children that were adopted out to another family. I felt that it was a great idea and was very pleased, however, I began to have natural maternal instincts that weaved my heart into a big disappointment. The two children who are now of course adults, do not feel the same towards me. This is shown in actions and words. And, I understand it.
However, I must express my feelings and emotions and accept the reality that once again I get the short end of the stick. I can feel my feelings but I must pick up my sword cut down the true enemy behind the scenes. Same enemy, same devices; seeking whomsoever he can devour.
This is why and how I remain steadfast in my trust in the Creator of the Universe because He continues to comfort me as a mother comforts her baby.
Happiness & Vibrancy with Rachel