EVEN THROUGH GRIEF GOD'S GOT YOU

HAVE YOU EVER FELT SORRY FOR SOMEONE AND LATER REALIZED IT WAS NOT PITY, BUT COMPASSION?

HAVE YOU EVER HAD COMPASSION FOR YOURSELF, MISTAKING ON IT FOR SELF-PITY?

SEPTEMBER 30, 2021 AT AROUND 1030PM, I WAS LYING IN MY BED, HALF ASLEEP. LIGHT OFF.

MY PHONE RINGS, TWO BROTHERS WERE CALLING ME SIMULTANEOUSLY, I KNEW SOMETHING WAS GOING ON!

MY SISTER HAD PASSED AWAY. SHE WAS A PEDESTRIAN AT THE CROSS WALK OF A TRAIN TRACKS. SHE STEPPED IN FRONT OF THE ONCOMING TRAIN. SHE DIED AROUND AN HOUR LATER.

I WAS STRUCK WITH A DEEP PENETRATING GLOOM, THIS TRIGGERED SOME OLD TRAGIC MEMORIES.

I WAS DEVASTATED, I COULD NOT BELIEVE IT. SHE WAS GONE. SHE WAS THE ONE WHO UNDERSTOOD ME AND KNEW ME THE BEST IN MY FAMILY.

YOU SEE, ON JANUARY 31, 1968 I LOST MY PARENTS TO A MURDER/SUICIDE DEMON. I WAS 10 YEARS OLD.

I COULD NOT BELIEVE IT WAS HAPPENING AGAIN!

I KNEW THAT NO ONE COULD HELP ME. ONLY GOD.

I HAVE LEARNED AND RECEIVED A HIGHER REVELATION ‘OF WHAT THE STATEMENT MEANS ‘HIS GRACE IS SUFFICIENT FOR ME’

THANK GOD, I KNEW TO LEAN ON HIS SPIRIT, THE BURDEN-REMOVING, YOKE-DESTROYING POWER OF GOD.

I KNOW WITHOUT A DOUBT THAT THE LIFE THAT I LIVE IN THE FLESH, MY BODY, I LIVE BY THE FAITH OF JESUS, THE ONE WHO LOVED ME AND GAVE HIMSELF FOR ME.

YOU SEE, I WAS CONCEIVED IN MY MOTHERS WOMB AS A [IN NATURE] SINNER.

MY MOTHER GAVE BIRTH TO A SPIRIT WHO WAS LYING DORMANT/DEAD, IN A MORTAL BODY WHO POSSESSED A SOUL [THINKER, FEELER, CHOOSER]

I GREW TO BE A TODDLER, ADOLESCENT, TEENAGER, AND A YOUNG ADULT.

THEN, I DECIDED TO GIVE MY LIFE TO GOD…

AND HE MADE ME THE RIGHTEOUSNESS OF GOD [ THE NATURE OF HIM].

AS AN OLDER ADULT, I AM STILL RENEWING MY CARNAL MIND TO THE WORD OF GOD, BECAUSE IN ORDER TO FIGHT THE GOOD FIGHT OF FAITH, I MUST CAST DOWN IMAGINATIONS, ETC SO THAT MY BORN AGAIN SPIRIT WHO HAS THE MIND OF CHRIST CAN BRING MY FLESH/CARNAL- THINKING UNDER SUBJECTION TO THE SPIRIT OF GOD.